A Crazy Life....

I can't seem to get away from crazy. It seems to follow me wherever I go. My brother is getting married on Saturday (August 1st). I am doing all I can to help them get the reception together as we are almost there. We have been going through so many changes at work that it is overwhelming. We are going from 10,000 sq. ft of office space to 5,000 sq. ft. of office space. That means people moving desks, throwing lots away, a giant yard sale and lots of shredding. Chaos tends to stress me out. Then last week I ended up in the Emergency room at Kaiser in tons of pain. They thought it was an ovarian cyst but I am still in pain and on vicodin around the clock that now they are second guessing that diagnosis. So many doctors appointments and chaos and planning and changes. If you are a praying person, please pray for me. I could use all the help I can get.

I guess it is time for an update...

I had surgery on my foot on June 10th. It is healing up nicely albeit slowly. I had broken my sesmoid bone in half over a year ago and was finally getting around to doing something to fix it up. I was in a funny shoe for a couple of weeks and then was freed to flip-flops when the stitches were removed. It is still a bit too swollen to wear tennis shoes or dress shoes comfortably. It was my first time ever having surgery or stitches!

I am working my darnedest to deepen my relationship with the Lord. I have been studying "Rhythms of the Inner Life", by Howard Macy with my friend and mentor. Through that time, I have been learning to express myself with the Lord, I have been learning to pray, and to be completely transparent with my Lord.

I have just joined a women's online study through my dad's church. It is about what happens when women say "YES" to God. I am excited about where this study is going to take my faith and dependence on God. It is also encouraging to read the blog and encouragements of the other ladies going through the study with me. I am excited to see how God shows Himself to all of us and the way He binds us together as sisters in Christ.

I have also been trying to re-learn how to pray. I have never been good at both aspects of prayer - the speaking and the listening. I try to sit in quiet and listen but my mind wanders off to all sorts of random things. It is so hard for me to keep my mind reigned in. I think I have expectations of hearing an audible voice or feeling some sensation knowing that I am hearing from God and that does not seem to be the case. It is hard sometimes to remember that I am not just venting but am working on a relationship with Jesus.

I have also been trying to heed the counsel of my therapist to journal on a regular basis. When I write it all down, I am trying to do an awful lot. I get around to journaling maybe twice a week. It is helpful when I sit down to do it but that is the problem...I need to sit down and do it. It has been helpful to get out thoughts and emotions I didn't even realize were there.

God has been so faithful to show Himself in so many different ways. I am trying to be good about recording different places and ways that I see Him at work in my life, in others' lives, and in ministry. It has been cool to introduce the "God Hunt" at work and see where others are seeing God's hands at work.

I encourage you to take time out of your week to write down how you saw God at work in your life and in the lives of those around you.